I guess this time it really is goodbye.

I lost the vital heart of mine.
But it was me who left it unattended to in the first place.
I ran away from that but it was to no avail. Maybe I didn't attempt to.
Apparently I'm the loser.
You win again.
:(
So unfair.

I almost forgot to say something else,
But if I can't fit it in I'll keep it all to myself.
Still,It was so vivid that I almost believed it.
It has been tacit all these while.
Or I assumed the other way.
I fear, Because half-truths can be more pernicious than outright falsehoods.
Is it still existent?
I guess it is then.
In vain, my persistence.
I almost gave up, though.

Ephemeral
Petty moment.
Almost evanescent.
It's in incongruous contrast to what I expected.
No idea what I'm saying.
I'm cripplingly incoherent at the moment.

Everyone says I'm lucky, he flew back from America to watch my matches, to support me. Sometimes, I really wonder if he's paid to do this. I know I'm being skeptical, but really, I don't deserve it.
& it adds up on my bloody guilt.

Loving's such a beautiful thing
Oh, you make my world,
A summer day

Are you just a dream,
To fade?