Because its worked each time before.

In every way that counted, I was dead. Inside somewhere maybe I was screaming & weeping & howling like an animal. But that was another person deep inside, another person who had no access to the face & lips & mouth & head. So on the surface I just shrugged & smiled & kept moving.
You're always not here, really.
I'm gone, haha.
Sometimes, you wished you didn't have a heart because it felt too much.
But is it the heart feeling, or the mind.
To your benefit, to your pride.

Today, during training vicky, Yvonne & I were talking & we came up with this.
It was sight at first love
love first at sight
sight love at first
first sight at love.
& we literally ROFLed, roll on field laughing.

Oh & did I mention how my grave & I totally brought cam whoring to a whole new level.

I know you know that I know you know.