If only I could take a picture with both of us,
enlarge it, frame it up
& put it on the wall beside my bed.
But, that'd be giving away my heart.
No, not to be borne.
So I'll just sit here in the darkness,
then no one would catch a glimpse of my brokenness.
Ah,& I wouldn't be vulnerable.
That's the most important part.


Perhaps we should all spilt our hearts, bodies, minds & souls all into half.
so if any half gets taken away,
we still have half.
It'll hurt but not bleed.
No, that would be so barriered
so defensive.
Unfruitful.
Ah, but we wouldn't be vulnerable.
That's the most important part.




So would you take my defences,
my lead protection,
to build a stronger one for your residence.
Or would you tear them,
rip apart,
& then leave.


Do whatever you want.
What's left of me?

Chem totally sucked.
But it's my fault, I didn't study.
I was supposed to wake early to read through organic.
But I didn't.
To think I thought I was able to hear my alarm.
To think.
To think only.
So when I woke at six forty five, I freaked.
When I'm stressed, I can't think.
When I can't think, chem doesn't go in.
No input, no output.
So,Chem, my current top subject, now subsides.
I'm gone, literally.

You'll see me soon.
Broken & in pieces.
Like those in your dreams.

Physics on thurs.
I love quantum physics, chicken neh neh.

Myconfidenceisgonewiththewind.

Then, in a brighter light,
I could do P & c yesterday! (:
I could do everything I studied (:

Which is every thing that's tested except normal distribution & sampling, the banes of my existence.
ass
ass
ass
ass
ass.

I hate math.
In conclusion, physics was, is, & will always be my best subject.









I wanna last with you for two years.

No, that's not enough.

I wanna last with you forever.

& ever

& ever

& ever

& ever

& ever.

Till we have no hair, no teeth, no skin, no bones.





Siaox already.

I shall sit by the pool side, imagine you swimming, & study physics today.
Haste, Lest while I am lagging,
I may, in my imagination, watch you tread the waters.
You can be my incentive.

Pretend pretend pretend (:

Can't wait for As to end (:

Can't wait for Friday either (:

When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start