I'm sick (again).
Immune fails. Like how everything fails.


Ok, I needed to forget.
So I took Jeannette's thick inorganic chemistry book to read, since it substantial.
At least, I felt comfortable knowing I might gain some knowledge.
I mean, exactly why it's substantial.
But substantial didn't really help.
Recently's been quite difficult to control what I think of.
I used to do it so smoothly.
That means I can't anymore.

Ralph fell yesterday.
& he skinned his knees.
Poor boy, he was crying so bad.


About the 42, did I mention,
I wanted to die at thirty.
Because it was really hurting so bad.
But I had to press on, keep a smile,
push someone on for another twelve.
I can act really well. Can't I

So is this good or bad.

I've got so many things to tell you, but I don't know where to start.
No wait, do you even want to listen?



Now's the worse time for you to be like this.
Now's the worse time for everyone to be like this.
But thank God, I've my family supporting me.
You can't depend on friends all the time you know.
I didn't know.
I just learnt.
Or maybe I did somewhat learn a long time ago,
just that I forgot.
No, maybe I shouldn't stereotype all friends.
Maybe it's only you.

J says I'm getting a taste of my own medicine.
That I cannot deny.
But now's the worse time, really.




I miss Leme very much.
But I'm drifting away.
We're going to crescent this Wednesday.
Wait, am I even going?



I heard my phone ring yesterday,
I didn't pick up.
Why?
Because I'm drifting.
And there something tells me, you can't pull me back.
I still love you,
but you can't pull me back.
It's against the forces you know,
forces of the waves.




I'm drifting, from everyone.
How did I slip away?
Maybe I'll come back.
Just not soon.
I need some time, for goodness knows what reason.
Yes, I know I have a reason.
But I have yet to acknowledge it.
It's just there.
I'll tell you when I find out.



I'm drifting from you.
I'm drifting from everyone, and you.