Because to let you go is to reject a portion of my past.
This, my soul has no faculty to adjure.
It is too precious a safeguard to the fragility of human nature.
Much to my desire my heart lacks this competency - to lose.
So I pray me allay this dejection.
Because there is no other option now.

My mind shall be distracted by my studies.
It's like killing two birds with one stone.
Ok, this is adequate.
I am adequate.

This is how my heart beats when I sleep
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This is how my heart beats when I run
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This is how my heart beats when I see the doctors holding anything that I know is going to be injected into me
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This is how my heart beats when I see you
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or sometimes it goes like this
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because my heart skips a beat.
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I do apologise for all these heart nonsense because I'm currently in trauma.
We forgot to close the gate and the neighbours cat ran in.
Trust me, the humans in the house were in chaos.