We're drifting apart, and I'm wasting my life in pursuit.
Your certainty in my life is dwindling, I must say
What I need most now is security. In the midst of all these anxiety, yes, I need security. Because I am a physical being, and I need air, not fantasy, to live.
I need a fortress. I need something strong enough built around me. At least for now.
But if you can't gather your bricks, if you can't at all, then I beseech you, just go away. Pack up and leave. Take all your luggage and just leave. And in your departure, leave nothing behind. No socks, no hair, nothing. Nothing from you.
Leave so I can build my own walls and defenses. Leave so you don't stand in my way. Leave so I don't have to waste my days repairing myself from the brokenness you bring. Leave so I may have more time to heal from your absence.